He's Perfect
Tuesday, 29 November 2016 | 12:00 | 0 comments
♥ Assalamualaikum ♥
Hi there, aby again here. How am i? Fine, thank you by the way. Boring, so i want update my blogger for a while. Today i want to story about someone that is too perfect that i ever met. He is my friend, my shoulder, my advisor, my boyfriend and will be my future husband . In Shaa Allah.
For the first time i met him at English Class in my college, kitorang satu kelas. You know what, dia orang yang paling aku tak suka sebab kali pertama aku jumpa dia gatal,miang semua ada and also he's Kelantanese. Konon dia nak try kawan aku Nadya. Panggil sayang bagai, sampai sakit teling aku. Daa, itu first time jumpa kot terus panggil orang sayang, Seriously tak pernah tegur langsung masa dekat English class because i dislike him so much. Sebelah mata pon tak pandang.
Habis jeh English Class, i thought that i never met this guy again tapi rupa-rupanya aku satu course dengan dia and i will see him untuk setiap semester and sepanjang aku belajar dekat sana. Masuk semster 1 pon tak pernah bertegur and tak pernah sedar yang dia wujud. For the first time kitorang tegur,masa Exam Midterm Transportation class. Itu pon sebab dia nak tanya jawapan. And then just tegur-ii bodoh sebab is still dislike him.
Next semester,is second semester we still macam tuh. Tak banyak story masa semester 2. Start third semester, kitorang dah mula banyak bercakap sebab dia ni kaki menganjing sikit. And sebab dia menganjing masa tuh aku kononnya di kenen-ii kan dengan kawan dia Megat. Then dah kenen pesemua, aku rapat dengan si Megat ni, The truth aku tk pernah official relay dengan dia, we just kawan rapat. Teman tapi mesra. But at the same time, aku memang ada perasaan lebih daripada seorang kawan. and it hurt me so much sebab dia still sayangkan ex girlfriend dia after what i have done.
Okayy abaikan dia, berbalik kepada this perfect guy. Kitorang rapat sebab dia kawan Megat, and kitorang selalu lepak setable and adalah rahsia dia yang aku tahu serba sedikit. Rahsia antara aku, dia dan Tyka. After aku tahu rahsia dia, and maybe dia takut rahsia dia bocor ( maybe kayy) kitorang selalu keluar lepak, kadang-ii pergi pon berdua, Dan aku selalu cerita dekat dia masalah aku and so on. He always advice me being this and that. I listen to him and make it.
Start cuti semester, Megat want end this friendship because he dont want hurt his ex girlfriend and i accepted. It hurt me so much. I cry, cry and cry, And i want and i need someone to heard my story and problem. Yaa, it's him the one that i need but still ada Tyka sebab i'm afraid of him. (Hahaha, masa tuh tak percaya dia sangat) But i don't know why masa tuh aku nak dia ada. I love both of them.
One week after that, aku ada trip pergi Penang, dia ikut and Megat pon. On that time it hurts me so much sebab masa tuh Megat happy dengan ex girlfriend dia. I was crying on that trip at the beach. Lepas aku dah okayy, and pergi dekat kawan-ii yang lain. This perfect guy want to take picture with me. And okayy, we took together. Malam selepas balik daripada pantai kitorang pergi makan dekat Padang Kota tak silap. And seriously, i dont have a friend there. Okayy, aku pergi lah duduk setable dengan dia and Zahid. Tak sampai 1 minit he asked something yang sangat sakit dan perit gila ayat dia that i cant accept. I cried with his words, and i go to another table. Balik daripada Padang Kota aku langsung tak tegur or pandang dia, Keesokannya, last trip kitorang dia duduk belakang aku. Kononnya nak pujuk,but i still merajuk nak tengok macam mana dia pujuk. Tapi sebelum balik tuh lagi aku dah start bercakap dengan dia, cuma ego sikit jeh.
After that trip dekat kelas law dia try pujuk and tegur, dia kata tak selesa kalau asyik macam ni ( Masa tuh tak fikir apa lagi sebab dalam berkawan memang tak selesa duduk sekelas lepas tuh tak bertegur) He whatsaap me and apologise to me, he's cute on that time. And i forgive him and i said please don't do it again. He promised me. Start daripada tu kitorang sangat rapat macam belangkas, we kept texting, hang out and sometimese watching a movie.
On that time i feel that we just friend because he already had someone in the college. Might be someone that he love the most. Dalam masa yang sama aku tak boleh tengok dia dengan perempuan tu. (And i dont know why) Masa tuh aku tak nak berharap, aku cuma anggap itu semua mainan perasaan.
Tak lama lepas tuh, kitorang buat last minute trip plan nak pergi Pangkor. Aku, dia, Solleh dengnan Syu. Kitorang plan pukul 2, 6 pagi tuh dah gerak pergi Pangkor. Just four of us. Malam masa dekat hotel dia ajak pergi makan, he saw me cried but he just said "Pergi bersiap, aku tunggu". Lepas makan, aku dengan dia pergi beli Maggi (takut lapar tengah-ii malam). Then dia ajak lepak tepi pantai, and masa tuh dia bagi macam-ii nasihat and a little bit secret about him. He know how to make me smile :). For the second day, kitorang buat activity pantai, masa tuh mata dia tk lepas dari aku. Aku hilang kejap jeh dia dah cari, Balik dari pantai petang dekat senja, penat gila. Balik hotel mandi terus tidur. Malam tuh aku terjaga, but he go out for a while. Aku lepak dekat balcony, tak lama lepas tuh dia datang. He always give me an advise and suggest something that never happen. Suddenly he asked me something weird "If let say, kau suka dan sayang seorang lelaki, tapi lelaki tuh sayang perempuan lain dan perempuan tuh ada lah kawan kau sendiri. Apa kau akan buat?" And i dont know to answer that because i never throught there. 2 night kitorang cerita benda yang sedih, tapi waktu siang i'm really happy with him. He made my day.
One day i had an accident on my way to go to work it's on 17 September 2016. I had nobody to call and catch me in the clinic. I dont want my parents know about it and i called him on that morning. I call him untuk minta tolong, tapi masa tuh dia dah nak pergi kerja sebab dia pon kerja pagi. And i said "Takde apa-ii lah, sorry ganggu" suddenly i cried a lot while talking to him on the phone. He said 'Why? Cakap lah kenapa ni?" He's worried. I said to him that i had an accident, and dia datang secepat mungkin dekat klinik dan bayar bil klinik. Dia hantar aku balik untuk tukar baju, lepas tuh hantar aku pergi HKL untuk buat X-ray. 4 jam dekat hospital tunggu, pergi jumpa orang ni , test air kencing. x-ray and tunggu report. Lama, seriously lama but he waited for me until i'm done. Dia hantar aku balik rumah dan dia pergi ambil motor aku dekat tempat aku accident. Balik tuh i wanted to call my parents and i told them that i had an accident. Mama dengan papa terus datang ambil bawa balik rumah.
Malam tuh jugak he whatsapp me and said "I like you and i love you so much". I'm not to shocked because i already knew about his feeling. Tapi masa tuh aku tak boleh terima dia lagi sebab aku tak tahu apa perasaan sebenar aku terhadap dia. I dont want to played with his feeling.
2nd October 2016 was his birthday, i make surprised for him. And him appreciate it a lot and masa tuh jugak lah aku bagitahu dia yang aku sayangkan dia dan terima dia. On his borthday, we official declaired. Dalam aku happy dengan dia, kadang-ii aku tertanya "Dia happy ke dengan aku? Perfect ke aku untuk dia? Apa yang dia rasa sama ke apa yang aku rasa? Adakah aku menyusahkan dia? Layak ke aku untuk dia? Sesuai ke untuk orang macam dia?" Hm.
P/s to Eary :*" Sayang, i love you, i miss you and i need you so much. I'm sorry that i cant be perfect like you wanted to. I'm sorry if i make you hurt the most, tanpa sengaja. Please tell me if did wrong tanpa sedar. I really don't know what i have done to you.Its hurt me to not to see your face, to not to talk to you, to not to holding your hand. I miss you so much :'("
